Tuesday, 13 August 2013

Am I getting to Personal !?

First of all, I want to apologise to my fellow bloggers and my cute little blog for my lack of communication over the last couple of months. I feel like I came to a bit of a crossroads with my career & my relationships and have generally been struggling to come to terms with what I really want from life.
Growing up I had blinkers on when I thought about the idea of “success”. I contribute a little of this to society’s clouded interpretation that “success =money, fame, career”.  In all honesty - this eventuated to me becoming obsessed with my career related goals and I guess just generally thinking that having a long standing job would give me all that I ever needed. Over the last year, a couple of hard hitting things happened in my life that shook me into consciousness and still continue to open my eyes. I realise now that concentrating solely on one thing can be detrimental to any individual’s mentality and being as it certainly has been to me... I think a lot of this has to do with worrying that I will disappoint people if I focus on what my heart truly desires. Having a break really made me feel like I don’t have to justify myself to anyone, including the people in my life that I respect and love most. I am ready to stop fighting and trying to control every aspect of my life. It’s time to stop letting my head put hesitations on my heart!
Almost deleted this blog post, but then I thought – I want to try (at least) live as openly as possible and just felt like sharing J

9 comments:

  1. Absolutely love this post!! Sometimes you need to take a step back and breathe....it's so easy getting caught up in one thing and obsessing over it and it can be so damaging to your happiness...and it can be so draining trying to please others all the time, you've just got to think about yourself sometimes and what you truly want out of life....I'm usually the first to ignore my heart and listen to the "rational" part of me, aka: my brain, but I guess if I really want to be happy I'm going to have to give my heart a look in too :-)
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    1. This comment made my day. I was really feeling really down on the post, until I heard your response to it. Thank you for helping me be brave haha I'm very grateful for your kind words and big heart :) xxxxxxx

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  2. I really liked this post and how open you are with points in your life and sometimes you feel is this to personal to share on a blog but I do the same I always feel it helps in the process to share your true feelings and desires in career and general life. I am also at a point where I want to focus on my career and relationships in my life <3

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    1. I am so grateful that you have given me such kind beautiful words. Blogging is such a great way of getting hard things off your heart and Im just glad you felt it relatable haha. Thank you Krystal! Im Wishing you all the best in everything you do. xxxxxx

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  3. I just happened to stubble across your wonderful space. and It is the best thing i have done all day. you are so wonderful and you should know that. I dont even know you and I can tell you are a lovely person. say hello to your newest stalker.

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    1. Hi! I just read your comment and it brought such a smile to my face. Thank you for being a stalker I am also a new stalker of yours. All my love to you xxx

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  4. Woah - I have been feeling the exact same for some months now! I am a school teacher and just feel like I need a break! Since I was 16 I have always been career focussed and now I am 26 I am starting to sit back and consider what I really want in life. I too thought a long standing job would give me everything I wanted in life but I'm not so sure now. Nice to know other people feel the same.

    Fadeelah

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    1. Fadeelah, you sound like you have done so well for yourself.!! Don't feel bad about needing some time, I think at some stage we all need it haha xxxx so much love to you!

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  5. well, for what it's worth, i love your blog and personally i'm really glad you didn't delete it because i just found it and i feel it's super relatable.

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